I'm gone away

Time for somethin' in my own words....a confession..

Can't find the right to say to you today as i try to get this across,
I mean the weight of my regret, that can only come from losing all
that you held close to you. To write someones name upon your
heart and soul.
Then hurt them when you lose all control. The same one that was your
heart and you tried to be their whole world.
'Cause you wanted to give them everything when all they wanted
was you. When you wanna be there to sing them a bedtime song,
but fate tears you apart and it all goes wrong.
When you stand in the kitchen that fateful day and hear:
"Daddy look at my new outfit." as you hold back your tears
and you pray she didn't hear you screaming at her mother
the night before....
then next thing you know you're packing, goin' out the door...
Find your bags on her sidewalk,
there's no way for us now to talk.
There's no hiding when there's all your crap before them, in the
light it's all too plain. To look into her blue little eyes but feel it's all in vain.
So you hope they don't feel your pain, that it won't engulf them like it
did their mother, this pain hurt us all like a compound fracture.

'Cause you wanna do the right thing at the wrong time but karma kicks
you from behind. Then you wanna lose your mind.
So what happens when you feel that you deserve the pain? That maybe
you should take the blame?
When all you can do is remember all the times you said: "I'm too
busy, go play outside."
Now so much pain I just can't abide.
Never meant to make her mother cry or do anything to hurt her.

Try to recognize myself through this nightmare haze.
Couldn't see myself as I looked down in disbelief, that I couldn't
imagine them drowning in this wanton grief.
Like the day i was thrown out on the street, enough to make my
heart skip a beat.

Couldn't sleep so taking more pills trying to get my thrills.
'Cause at night she'd come to me saying:"Daddy, when are you comin'
back for me? You said you weren't leavin', were you lyin?"
Before I could I could answer she said:"Don't you see, can't you hear
me still cryin'?"

Then she wept and turned to leave so I said:"No I'm sorry, baby just wait!"
She said:"No you made your choice, it's all too late."




Just hoped for one more chance to do it right, but with love fading came the endless night..
there was no turning back.....far beyond gone...